11:34 p.m. - 2004-11-28
Brain Fart (second entry today)
You know...my mind is playing really fucked up tricks on me today.
I have come to the realization that I enjoy being home - a lot. I enjoy being on my own schedule - a lot. It's been nice having this down time...being on a "vacation" so to speak...even if I have been plodding along at my own pace, doing my own thing. Setting my own hours...I haven't had this in years and I truly forgot how wonderful it was. It was better than I had imagined.
And it will end next week.
I actually find myself dreading this in a way as this is an end to my freedom -- weird as it may sound.
I never really wanted to work, and I am doing this as a lesser of two evils...I realize that I am that personality that cannot work for someone else.
Every time I freak out about this business, I actually think of my life back at FUP and cringe at the thought that I could have still been there.
Still, most of the responsibility of this whole business falls squarely on my shoulders because Browneye will be working full time for at least the first few years for someone else.
I will never tell Browneye this as it would freak him out.
Also....had 2 weird typos today.
The first was when I attempted to type in CUNY (abbreviation for City University of NY). Well, the T is next to the Y on the keyboard...um...figure it out.
The next was a response I had written about hating decaf and I typed :::runs creaming::: instead of :::runs screaming:::.
Brain fart.
